I'm not psycho, I can promise you this, but I am crazy. Just a tad. These past several months have been just crazy. I can't even begin to tell you the trials that I have faced. And trust me its not over yet.
February was pretty crazy losing some good friends. God, take care of them. In March I lost a few more. And that's when I spiraled out of control. Sometimes life is just to much for me to bear. And that time period I was so close to the edge again. April and May were just my "I really don't care about you and your stupid life. I have my own to deal with, asshole" months. June came and that was actually really fun. I had a blast with some friends, my heart kind of changed my way of thinking and I became a little kinder to people. But I wasn't complete better until I decided to make the courageous decision to get on a plane with a bunch of crazy teenagers to Montana. I think that was the trip that changed me the most. We had some amazing leaders and amazing people on that trip! Montana was too beautiful! It was amazing and I miss it so much. It was probably the best trip I've ever had! I laughed and I learned to love. I still don't like most people but I've learned to love them even when they can be complete morons.
But what I really felt like talking about was what's happening tonight. Because honestly I'm so tired of crying of this bullshit. Sometimes fighting over everything is pointless and that's what this person is doing. I don't normally post shit about people but I need to vent were people will hear me.
Every time I turn around, she argues about every little thing. Then thinks its okay five minutes later when I am already mad. YOU DON'T DO THAT! LIKE EVER! I mean come on. Don't sit there and argue about your new school or clothes, OR ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT COMES TO MIND! It's pathetic. And then get mad when I decide to walk away and fight even more. Or when I do get mad and argue back. I can't win with you! Just stop it doesn't work anymore. You cry and complain when I don't talk to you but push me away when I try too. I'm sorry, Sweetie, it doesn't work that way anymore.
Sorry for unleashing all of this on you guys but it's something that bothers me. Just saying. But ya'll have a great and beautiful evening/morning/day/night! Love you guys!
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Make a Trial into Triumph!
Next in my little speech is turning a trial into triumph. And just like turning a test into a testimony. Even through it may be hard doing so. Life gets hard and even when it does our faith goes to God.
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace" -Ephesians 1:7
We all have a trial that we are put through. God puts us through these things to test our strength, faith, and love. And I will show you how importance these things are.
Faith-belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings.
What does it mean to have faith? Well to me, it means to put your faith in the hands of God. And that can be hard. But just do it! Like Nike! :)
Strength- a moral power or courage.
Being strong? That's when prayer comes in. Pray and keep praying! It's hard but not that impossible! So have faith and pray. He will give you comfort during your trial.
And finally!!
Love- a deep burning emotion that shows affection.
In everything I do and in everything that has happened. I have learned that you're going to need people who love you around. And when they show you love. You learn love and then nothing is impossible. But the love of a savior is the best thing to have. And if you don't have a savior well, pray for Jesus to come into you're heart. Just comment on this and I will give you more details.
Well everyone! Hope to be back soon! Love you guys! Have a good night or day!
Love Song for A Savior by Jars of Clay :)
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace" -Ephesians 1:7
We all have a trial that we are put through. God puts us through these things to test our strength, faith, and love. And I will show you how importance these things are.
Faith-belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings.
What does it mean to have faith? Well to me, it means to put your faith in the hands of God. And that can be hard. But just do it! Like Nike! :)
Strength- a moral power or courage.
Being strong? That's when prayer comes in. Pray and keep praying! It's hard but not that impossible! So have faith and pray. He will give you comfort during your trial.
And finally!!
Love- a deep burning emotion that shows affection.
In everything I do and in everything that has happened. I have learned that you're going to need people who love you around. And when they show you love. You learn love and then nothing is impossible. But the love of a savior is the best thing to have. And if you don't have a savior well, pray for Jesus to come into you're heart. Just comment on this and I will give you more details.
Well everyone! Hope to be back soon! Love you guys! Have a good night or day!
Friday, February 8, 2013
Turning a Test into a Testimony 1
Hey guys!
So I am starting a 3 part series. And this is the first part of the first one. I will included a little bit of my testimony in this series but also on how to get there. This is my opinion on it and you don't have to agree. You can think whatever. And I am sorry for the fact that I haven't posted in a long time. I keep wanting to write but I can't seem to do it. So I am really sorry.
So how do you turn a test into a testimony? That's a interesting question. And I am glad I can find a way to give you my opinion. Now I wa t to say if you get offended, please understand this isn't to offend anyone. So now I began my series!
Biblically speaking a test is a hardship you go through so God can show you He there. Many of times I have a gone through variest tests that God has given m. I'm stilll learning. A lot of the times I refuse to listen but I do get on my knees when things reach the boiling point. Times will rough. You just have to pray and know that God will be there. And that's just one way you can create your testimony.
This doesn't mean take a test at school and be like oh I have a testimony. If I find out you did that, I might throw THE book your way! Like that is stupid. I know a lot of my church friends actually do pray before their tests. And thats fine but taking a test won't give you a testimony. Maybe a joke but it will not get taken seriously.
When I was 14 to 15, I did go through a hardship. And I know they don't like the fact I know a lot about thier relationship problems but my step mom and my daddy fought a lot. One night the cops were called on them. But I would always get dragged into the fighting. Mainly by her. Ever since I lived with my mom, I learned that I should not take sides and I created my own opinions about things. I actually choose to bash my dad. But in all honesty I was just trying to get rid of her. I hate her and I don't like anything she does know. But during my time being, I tried my best to distracted by playing sports, involing myself with my friends. The fighting between the two was really rough. And my sister was depressed. I couldn't stand to be in the shoes I was wearing. I was depressed and unhappy. I was fighting. I saw my rights. I knew I had to get out. During that time, I strated praying and praying. Nothing changed. Nothing happened. I began to doubt, which is the biggest mistake in the entire world. Little did I know, that when I fought back against my dad and my dad kicked me out. God did answer my pray. Yet I realized that a little too late. Like 6 months after words. But little did I know that test, became a huge detail in my testimony. Which is large, knowing the fact that I have been through a lot. And praying is a huge deal in order to make your test turn into a testimony. But thank you God for that! I give you so much praise!!!
So I hope you enjoyed this. I will be back for the second part in this small series! Love you, guys! Sorry for not keeping updated!!
-Christian Girl :)
So I am starting a 3 part series. And this is the first part of the first one. I will included a little bit of my testimony in this series but also on how to get there. This is my opinion on it and you don't have to agree. You can think whatever. And I am sorry for the fact that I haven't posted in a long time. I keep wanting to write but I can't seem to do it. So I am really sorry.
So how do you turn a test into a testimony? That's a interesting question. And I am glad I can find a way to give you my opinion. Now I wa t to say if you get offended, please understand this isn't to offend anyone. So now I began my series!
Biblically speaking a test is a hardship you go through so God can show you He there. Many of times I have a gone through variest tests that God has given m. I'm stilll learning. A lot of the times I refuse to listen but I do get on my knees when things reach the boiling point. Times will rough. You just have to pray and know that God will be there. And that's just one way you can create your testimony.
This doesn't mean take a test at school and be like oh I have a testimony. If I find out you did that, I might throw THE book your way! Like that is stupid. I know a lot of my church friends actually do pray before their tests. And thats fine but taking a test won't give you a testimony. Maybe a joke but it will not get taken seriously.
When I was 14 to 15, I did go through a hardship. And I know they don't like the fact I know a lot about thier relationship problems but my step mom and my daddy fought a lot. One night the cops were called on them. But I would always get dragged into the fighting. Mainly by her. Ever since I lived with my mom, I learned that I should not take sides and I created my own opinions about things. I actually choose to bash my dad. But in all honesty I was just trying to get rid of her. I hate her and I don't like anything she does know. But during my time being, I tried my best to distracted by playing sports, involing myself with my friends. The fighting between the two was really rough. And my sister was depressed. I couldn't stand to be in the shoes I was wearing. I was depressed and unhappy. I was fighting. I saw my rights. I knew I had to get out. During that time, I strated praying and praying. Nothing changed. Nothing happened. I began to doubt, which is the biggest mistake in the entire world. Little did I know, that when I fought back against my dad and my dad kicked me out. God did answer my pray. Yet I realized that a little too late. Like 6 months after words. But little did I know that test, became a huge detail in my testimony. Which is large, knowing the fact that I have been through a lot. And praying is a huge deal in order to make your test turn into a testimony. But thank you God for that! I give you so much praise!!!
So I hope you enjoyed this. I will be back for the second part in this small series! Love you, guys! Sorry for not keeping updated!!
-Christian Girl :)
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