I'm not psycho, I can promise you this, but I am crazy. Just a tad. These past several months have been just crazy. I can't even begin to tell you the trials that I have faced. And trust me its not over yet.
February was pretty crazy losing some good friends. God, take care of them. In March I lost a few more. And that's when I spiraled out of control. Sometimes life is just to much for me to bear. And that time period I was so close to the edge again. April and May were just my "I really don't care about you and your stupid life. I have my own to deal with, asshole" months. June came and that was actually really fun. I had a blast with some friends, my heart kind of changed my way of thinking and I became a little kinder to people. But I wasn't complete better until I decided to make the courageous decision to get on a plane with a bunch of crazy teenagers to Montana. I think that was the trip that changed me the most. We had some amazing leaders and amazing people on that trip! Montana was too beautiful! It was amazing and I miss it so much. It was probably the best trip I've ever had! I laughed and I learned to love. I still don't like most people but I've learned to love them even when they can be complete morons.
But what I really felt like talking about was what's happening tonight. Because honestly I'm so tired of crying of this bullshit. Sometimes fighting over everything is pointless and that's what this person is doing. I don't normally post shit about people but I need to vent were people will hear me.
Every time I turn around, she argues about every little thing. Then thinks its okay five minutes later when I am already mad. YOU DON'T DO THAT! LIKE EVER! I mean come on. Don't sit there and argue about your new school or clothes, OR ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT COMES TO MIND! It's pathetic. And then get mad when I decide to walk away and fight even more. Or when I do get mad and argue back. I can't win with you! Just stop it doesn't work anymore. You cry and complain when I don't talk to you but push me away when I try too. I'm sorry, Sweetie, it doesn't work that way anymore.
Sorry for unleashing all of this on you guys but it's something that bothers me. Just saying. But ya'll have a great and beautiful evening/morning/day/night! Love you guys!
