I can't believe the things I read or why I even bother keep in contact with my family. I would rather just be dead to them. I am a horrible person. I disobey and I like to argue. I guess I am not allow to have feelings either. Your not neutral bitch! You just like believing whatever the hell my dad says and you know you get money from it. How does it feel to rob my mother of her money? Knowing good and well that we live with her. Gosh stupid idiots in the world. I am just so angry right now with the world and my home life. I was so happy today and my pathetic step mom ruined it all.
They can kiss my butt, I am not going back to live with my dad. They ruined it. I won't visit him or talk to him. My father yea my deserve an apology. No one bothers to think that I actually have feelings and that no one bother to acknowlegde them. I didn't ahve to freaking tell them I was in pain. They could have seen it in my drawings, on my arms, and poetry! I am about done with everything. I wish my old life would just burn and disappear into a black hole. I wish it were a peice of paper. Easily ripable.
Thinking about him makes me want to punch a wall or just I don't know. I can't help but thinking about those to leirs and the path they are on. First I was rude to her because I was sick and tired of her being rude to me. I was always trying to help her and her stupid daughters. Hell, I was her daughters slave. I did everything for her daughter. Pshhh, grow up people. I am the one who is suppose to be immature. Guess what your the one who is immature.
One day I am going to forgive what they did to me. I WILL NEVER FORGET THOUGH! I will apoligize for the burden I am to them. I won't jold back when I attack them with my pain and anger. I am so sick and tired of being weak. I keep fighting a war that won't seem to end. That isn't even my battle.
I believe that I am right where I need to be.God put me in the place I am in because I simply have the strength to handle it. God is making me bend that knee, he is pushing me to my limit. He wants to see how extremly strong I am. I am about to show him, who He made me to be. I may have lost faith but now I know. I won't lose my faith or my soul again to demons.
Welcome to my world. The world of strength and passion. Goodnight everyone!
-The Strong!
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