My Testimony: It gets better!

Here's my testimony:

My name is Dakota and I'm 17 years old. And this is my story on how I overcame my depression and anger issues. When I was about 7 I moved to Vernon,Texas. I can remember that year I learned that boys didn't really have cooties and what sex really was. I was pinned down by a group of boys and they forced another boy to try to kiss me but then one of them went to their mom and started nasty rumors about my family. Well my social life in elementary was screwed after I turned like 8 or 9 after that. I moved to a place outside of Electra. It was in the middle of no where and that began the phase of being bullied. Now my family always seemed prefect, but in reality, my parents never talked, my dad was a drunk, my mom was so cyber fantasized with her world, that I sorta raised my sister from that point on. Eventually I became home schooled until my parents became divorced. That's where our little story takes place. My fear,anger,pain, resentment, all came on November 19, 2010. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was still home schooled and my mom left my dad with a rush of fear. I did have a boyfriend at the time for like two years. He's mom became a little too obsessed with me.Well, we stayed with his family for a while and then the kicked us out. My aunt came and saved us when they kicked us out. I began to grow cold. I had questions so many why questions. On February 2, 2011, I went to court with my parents. I told the judge I wanted to live with my mom and he said I would live with my dad. I cussed that judge out that night. I made him regret things that night. I didn't want to live with my dad. He was a drunk and already found a new women. She is called the step monster and will be throughout the entire story. I started public school the week after I was forced to live with my dad. I had hardly no friends in 7th grade. All the girls hated me and one friend was about to graduate. I'm still friends with him till this day and I consider him my best friend. His name is Tyler. The creator of this page. There was a week that I went to the a hospital because CPS found out that I tried to commit suicide. I was depressed. So I was there. That summer I began fighting with my mom and cutting. It was absolutely terrible. My therapist caught the cuts and had a lot to say. When my 8th grade year began I did everything possible to try and fit in. I made a group of friends and everything seemed okay until my health started to suck. I was on Zoloft and it had some long term symptoms. My health wasn't so great. I was always lightheaded and I wasn't eating a lot anymore. I was taken of Zoloft and the cutting stop with it. Just because the medication seemed to help my mood, I felt absolutely nothing. I was emotionally numb. After I was off the medicine for awhile, things weren't so bad. I mended up the relationship with my mom the summer after my 8th grade year. My freshmen year in high school started going to crap. My friends were leaving and I wanted to live with my mom. In January of 2012 I moved in with my mom. I was angry at my dad and I was hurt by his actions. I went to school with 3,500 other students when I moved with my mom. In March of that year I met a boy. And I liked this boy a lot. He turned my entire world upside down. I would have died for this boy. Then he cheated and we broke up constantly. I wanted to die after this point. I hated everything about myself because of him. I though I should have been more prettier, more skinny, etc. I was wrong. I learned my worth at a church camp and a mission trip during the summer after freshmen year. My mom and her boyfriend moved to another apartment that same year. I started another with almost 4,000 students. I was depressed at that school at the beginning because I didn't know anyone and no one wanted anything to do with a lost and confused girl. But I did met amazing people later on. They helped me through a lot. At the beginning of 2013, God took away 6 amazing people. In between all of that, I found myself depressed. I was really just done with the world and I thought I could take my life. So I tried choking myself. I wimped out. I was taken to a hospital but I was never admitted. That was in March. After school ended I went to Montana on a mission trip with friends and I found love for people and friends. I began to realize that life is going to knock me down and I just have to shake it off and keep going. It's never going to be easy. But it has been better for me. And I know if it's better for me. Then I know it's better for you. Keep fighting and know your worth. And know that even if you feel like no one loves you, I do even if I don't know you. Live life and enjoy it!

Here's to the Guys!

I read this article about the battle young men and even older men in general are facing. It explains how men every where are facing a battle of temptation. And the more I read different articles and talk to different people about this battle I realize so much more about guys.

I once went to a all girls bible study.And what I am about to say comes from a guys point of view and are all anonymous. These are some of the things I heard that stood out to me and for the young women reading this, it some tips for you.

•  One of the young men said everyday going to school that he battles with temptation when he see's a girls outfit. He once said that he had seen a young women's stomach that he was fighting the thought of undressing her with his eyes. He is constantly always looking away and trying to keep his thoughts pure.
• Other young men were saying that that even a peek of a unseen skin leads them to dark thoughts.
• Most guys want to truly like a women's personality but it's so hard with the way women are dressing bow days. Examples are: booty shorts, crop tops, tight mini skirt,tight dresses, etc. You know the kind of outfits. We see them all the time. 
• Porn and the way women are exposed give even more temptation. It devalues women everywhere and so then men devalue women.

Thank you gentlemen for pushing through this battle. It's been tough. And I promise you, IT WILL PAY OFF! Keep fighting! I know it's hard but please don't give up.

Now this is my message to young girls every where. 

WE CONSTANTLY COMPLAIN ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME BECAUSE THEY WANT SEX OR WHATEVER, YET WE DRESS THE PART!

I understand it is hard to not want the cutest look or the new style that just came out. But would it be worth it to degrade ourselves as women? NO! It's simply not. So lets cut to the point. If we want men to treat us better and look at us better then we need to start acting like the women we are called to be by God. I know that temptation is hard and it's a battle, but we have to turn it around. We need to be the proverbs 31 women we have been called to be. It's going to be a harder battle. But we need to make the battle easier for men too. 

So this is my rant. And I do apologize for not being active and I promise you I will be back a lot more. Okay I'll try. I'll talk to you here soon! Bye!