Well I think this will be a new subject every week deal kinda thing. I have a long one so I will start it. This is for people I care about. And my friends family. And my family. So here it goes.
My mom. She has had her surgery and most of my readers know who she is. She is doing alright but could use the prayer. She has a long journey that awaits her with her HS. Most of you know that. I am hoping that HS will go away.
My Mom's friend. She lost her husband awhile back. Well his sister, is super sick. It just came upon her. My mom's friend thinks of this women as her own sister. So please pray for both of them,
My friend Shawn. His dad is in the Army I believe and he needs a lot of pray to. His father loves this job but he is getting a little old for it and Shawn doesn't think he can keep up with it anymore.
My dad and my other family there. My dad needs some forgiveness and God in his life. He doesn't talk to God and he needs to. Also to heal my dad's pain. For my other family, watch over them and protect them. My brother and his job. He has a dangerous job. My sister's and their children. My step- mom to know that I care about her.
I met a woman today. She lost her job. She is a single mother. No money. Her car doesn't work. When she came up to us. She looked like she had not wanted to do what she was doing. She wished she had a different way of doing things. It almost brought tears to my eyes to see her pain. So lase pray for her. She really needs it right now.
And I am going to ask for ya'll to pray for my sister and I . We are in a lot of pain. We are hurting from my father's destruction. He has hurt us. I still have trouble forgiving him. I am still in anger and pain. We both are.
Thank you everyone. For everything, I pray for ya'll and whatever your troubles may be. I know today I learned the power of prayer. It can be crazy. It's amazing. When God answers your prays He is helping you. When He doesn't he is creating patience. I seen Natalie Grant this morning at church. Yes, she was at my church. It was amazing. I learned a lot. I hope everyone else did.
In some upcoming news. I am thinking about coming out with a healing bible series. It might be interesting for me. I hope it is for ya'll. I hope it helps ya'll as much as it helps me. Well everyone. I am logging off! Goodnight everyone! Have a blessed day tomorrow, everyone!!
-The Helpless
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Inside & Out
I listen to a lot of up beat music. I just come across one of those songs were it fits with everything I feel. The more I talk about my dad. The more anger I feel. I blow up. I can't stay clam. I feel like I have to punch the wall or something. Everything he has said to me. Has hurt me servely. He doesn't care though. It isn't in his nature to care. Like it's not in his nature to be a father. He doesn't need to be one. And I am sorry if you think he does. You don't live with him. You don't feel the pain I do. This is one song I feel is right for this moment.
I really feel this way. I just can't help the anger I have for my Dad. He created it. He wanted all of this. One day, he will get what he deserved. A frying pan to the freaking head. I love Tangled. That's where I got the frying pan. So, look up Floers to a Ghost by Thriving Ivory. It is something amazing. Music has been my best friend though all of this. I just have a lot on my mind tonight. I just don't know how to get it off my mind. I wanna sleep. I wanna be in peace for once with my soul and pain. This is just so frusating!!! All the constant pain. All the anger. I need a brick wall to punch. I don't care if I btreak my hand. I will be happy. Sigh. Maybe I need to log off.
Everything with my mom. I am always trying to be strong for her. I just can't help but want to cry. I wish I was never born at times. I wish I could make everyone's suffering come to an end. That is God's job anyways. At times, I feel like He doesn't listen. I need to escape from my mind for awhile.
Well, Goodnight everyone.
-The Hurt and Angered
I really feel this way. I just can't help the anger I have for my Dad. He created it. He wanted all of this. One day, he will get what he deserved. A frying pan to the freaking head. I love Tangled. That's where I got the frying pan. So, look up Floers to a Ghost by Thriving Ivory. It is something amazing. Music has been my best friend though all of this. I just have a lot on my mind tonight. I just don't know how to get it off my mind. I wanna sleep. I wanna be in peace for once with my soul and pain. This is just so frusating!!! All the constant pain. All the anger. I need a brick wall to punch. I don't care if I btreak my hand. I will be happy. Sigh. Maybe I need to log off.
Everything with my mom. I am always trying to be strong for her. I just can't help but want to cry. I wish I was never born at times. I wish I could make everyone's suffering come to an end. That is God's job anyways. At times, I feel like He doesn't listen. I need to escape from my mind for awhile.
Well, Goodnight everyone.
-The Hurt and Angered
Friday, January 27, 2012
Talking About Him
Talking about my dad, angers me a lot. I mean a lot! I feel my blood run through my veins. I feel it boil with the anger! I can't help it. I am still ticked. Everyone is trying to make me forgive him and I just can not do it. I am even more furious! I try to hold it all in. It just doesn't seem to work. I know this is going to be a short post. I just am boiling over. I am going to call it a night.
Well Goodnight!
-The Helpless
Well Goodnight!
-The Helpless
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Busy, Busy, Busy Girl
I have been super busy! I have had school and my mom! She has been well out of the loop. Long story. Just please pray for her. all my classes are set and I am totally lost on all of it! It's like sigh! Help me!
I don't have a whole lot of time. So I will start off with my dad. He is being this total happy guy and all of this. I really find it pathetic. He tells me he wants nothing to do with me and than starts this whole b.s thing. I wish he stop. It is annoying .
I have been like crazy busy and it doesn't stop there. There is more to my daily life than my dad, my mom, and school. There is my sister who is like a brat at times. She makes me so mad and treat me pretty crapy! She told me last night she hated me. Than apoligized and than said I had to forgive her that instance! Stupid! Gosh she just doesn't stop!She don't know when to either!!!!!
I am so angry at this point and it just doesn't end there. I am still upset with my dad! Well I better start finsihing up! Welp, I am done with all of this stupid drama with my dad and everyone else. I am finsihed here for the night and just comment with any thing that doesn't piss me off! Thank you everyone! Have a goodnight! Goodbye!!!
-The Ticked
I don't have a whole lot of time. So I will start off with my dad. He is being this total happy guy and all of this. I really find it pathetic. He tells me he wants nothing to do with me and than starts this whole b.s thing. I wish he stop. It is annoying .
I have been like crazy busy and it doesn't stop there. There is more to my daily life than my dad, my mom, and school. There is my sister who is like a brat at times. She makes me so mad and treat me pretty crapy! She told me last night she hated me. Than apoligized and than said I had to forgive her that instance! Stupid! Gosh she just doesn't stop!She don't know when to either!!!!!
I am so angry at this point and it just doesn't end there. I am still upset with my dad! Well I better start finsihing up! Welp, I am done with all of this stupid drama with my dad and everyone else. I am finsihed here for the night and just comment with any thing that doesn't piss me off! Thank you everyone! Have a goodnight! Goodbye!!!
-The Ticked
Busy, Busy, Busy Girl
I have been super busy! I have had school and my mom! She has been well out of the loop. Long story. Just please pray for her. all my classes are set and I am totally lost on all of it! It's like sigh! Help me!
I don't have a whole lot of time. So I will start off with my dad. He is being this total happy guy and all of this. I really find it pathetic. He tells me he wants nothing to do with me and than starts this whole b.s thing. I wish he stop. It is annoying .
I have been like crazy busy and it doesn't stop there. There is more to my daily life than my dad, my mom, and school. There is my sister who is like a brat at times. She makes me so mad and treat me pretty crapy! She told me last night she hated me. Than apoligized and than said I had to forgive her that instance! Stupid! Gosh she just doesn't stop!She don't know when to either!!!!!
I am so angry at this point and it just doesn't end there. I am still upset with my dad! Well I better start finsihing up! Welp, I am done with all of this stupid drama with my dad and everyone else. I am finsihed here for the night and just comment with any thing that doesn't piss me off! Thank you everyone! Have a goodnight! Goodbye!!!
-The Ticked
I don't have a whole lot of time. So I will start off with my dad. He is being this total happy guy and all of this. I really find it pathetic. He tells me he wants nothing to do with me and than starts this whole b.s thing. I wish he stop. It is annoying .
I have been like crazy busy and it doesn't stop there. There is more to my daily life than my dad, my mom, and school. There is my sister who is like a brat at times. She makes me so mad and treat me pretty crapy! She told me last night she hated me. Than apoligized and than said I had to forgive her that instance! Stupid! Gosh she just doesn't stop!She don't know when to either!!!!!
I am so angry at this point and it just doesn't end there. I am still upset with my dad! Well I better start finsihing up! Welp, I am done with all of this stupid drama with my dad and everyone else. I am finsihed here for the night and just comment with any thing that doesn't piss me off! Thank you everyone! Have a goodnight! Goodbye!!!
-The Ticked
Sunday, January 22, 2012
A New Journey
Tomorrow I begin my life at a new school, a new home, and a different world. I hope to make many friends and no enemies. I have hope for the new. I can't wait for the new things, God has in stored for me. I am excited, yet nervous for tomorrow.
I had seen the movie Courageous. I had felt a deep powerful connection to it. It all started with the father being mad at his father. I know his position, except, I would have not have want to know my dad at some times. I begin to reopen my heart back up to God. This is something I have had trouble doing. I know I need God. I know I need someone there to help me forgive my dad. I sure as hell know my dad isn't perfect. I sure know, I am not either. I know that. I know I hurt my dad. I know what I did. But does he? This is where I really need God to take a skillet to his head and say"Get your act together. It's your girls or her girls? You need to open your heart and be there for them girls. Listen to your girls. Start acting like the father I need and tell you to be!" Sadly, my dad won't listen. I don't want to be angry at my dad. I want to have a realtionship with him. I just need him to listen. Here is the theme song of the movie.
I am a fan of Casting Crowns!(: They are an amzing band! Them and Toby Mac have helped me through a lot. I want to thank them! So thank you! Well I better get off and take a shower and go to bed! Goodnight everybody!
-The Happy!(:
I had seen the movie Courageous. I had felt a deep powerful connection to it. It all started with the father being mad at his father. I know his position, except, I would have not have want to know my dad at some times. I begin to reopen my heart back up to God. This is something I have had trouble doing. I know I need God. I know I need someone there to help me forgive my dad. I sure as hell know my dad isn't perfect. I sure know, I am not either. I know that. I know I hurt my dad. I know what I did. But does he? This is where I really need God to take a skillet to his head and say"Get your act together. It's your girls or her girls? You need to open your heart and be there for them girls. Listen to your girls. Start acting like the father I need and tell you to be!" Sadly, my dad won't listen. I don't want to be angry at my dad. I want to have a realtionship with him. I just need him to listen. Here is the theme song of the movie.
I am a fan of Casting Crowns!(: They are an amzing band! Them and Toby Mac have helped me through a lot. I want to thank them! So thank you! Well I better get off and take a shower and go to bed! Goodnight everybody!
-The Happy!(:
In a Better Place
My mom came to get me from my dad's Friday. It really hasn't hit me yet. I have been just going crazy and in so much pain. I have been destroyed of this issue. I can't help but cry sometimes. I keep remembering all that was said. I have anamozing support group. I just can't shake things off my mind.
I left my small town, with so much heartache. I know that there will be a good outcome of all of this, When though? When will it be better? Questions I ask myself everyday and there is even more. I am ready for a new. I am ready for brighter things! Well, I really don't know what to say now. Haha!
-The Helpless
I left my small town, with so much heartache. I know that there will be a good outcome of all of this, When though? When will it be better? Questions I ask myself everyday and there is even more. I am ready for a new. I am ready for brighter things! Well, I really don't know what to say now. Haha!
-The Helpless
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