Orphan Sunday

Most people are going to disagree with me on this one, but I have a good reason for this. Orphan Sunday, the day churches show people who orphans and adoption is all about. I disagree with this day on veriest levels of today's society. Starting with the top three reasons with why I hate adoption.

• Adoption is a very corrupt and dark thing. It works for some kids and people but if you think about, children from other countries are stolen, we pay for children, and some adoption agency's like to take kids from perfectly fit mothers. Adoption is not a very good thing. I won't start with religion here.
• Adoptees get pissed real easy. Most states don't allow access to birth certificates, medical history or any background information to the adoptees.
• And last adoption makes money and it isn't right. For a kid here in the U.S, no one wants them or they are cheap. Kids from other countries, well most people want them because they are from another country.

Most of you are going to think she doesn't know what she is talking about. Well sadly I do. I grew up with my mom searching for her mom and her true self. I also have a lot of friends from my mom who are adopted and have been fighting for open access for their rights as adoptees to have their information. (second bulliten)

 Now on to the religous portion of adoption. God calls us to help orphans and widows. As Christians, are we really doing that? Sure some churches have adoption agencys that put kids into good Christian homes but that is not how God intented it to be, is it? Nope. Not at all. If a mother dies or gives up her kid we should be able to sign some papers and the kid is in the new home but no. WE HAVE TO PAY FOR THE DANG KID!  I'm sorry, God never intented it to be this way. Adoption is not bibe based. Sorry to break the news to you. This is one topic that pisses me off and I needed to vent about it.

Most of my church friends are going to not like this and call me crazy but I'm serious this isn't right and no one is going to understand if they don't know the damn facts. I am tired of arguing with damn people who think I am wrong when the way things are now prove it wrong.

One thing that started this rampage is my bible study teacher disagrees with me not going tomorrow. I am liable to walk out of that dang service or stand up and yell "Bull s***" Because bible verses what these people think is right. Want me to preach, I can do it all night long and still leave upset. I am very short tempered person, I have been able to control it but I am dead serious when this happens. I am done for the night! Thanks guys!

-Jesus Freak

Dear......,

It's been awhile since we talked and I can't say I miss you but you touched my heart with your cruel words.
The 4 words I knew you never meant but affected me deeply.
You won't understand what I did because no one cares enough to pull a move like I did.
My heart is intertwined with Jesus & God.
You can't fix anything except try and heal with Jesus & God in your heart.
I saved your life from something worse.
And though you will never talk to me, I hope you come across this and know that I do care and that my intentions were never to hurt but to help you!
Yes, I love you.
No, I do not want another relationship with because I would be crazy.
I will miss our friendship.
I put it at risk.
One day you will thank me.
One day you will find me
But you won't know what to say unless you change.
I can't say much except, take care of yourself.
Learn to pray.
Learn to TRULY love!
Give your heart to Jesus.
Fall in love with natural beauty around you.
And most importantly, never, NEVER forget where you came from!
Goodbye old friend, forever!
May God take care of you!

Love,
Your very caring Ex- girlfriend!

The Voice of Others!

I read the acticle of Amanda Todd's suicide. And it really got me to thinking. Society isn't all that is cracked up to be. We think eachone of us are fine and really were not. Some people deal with emotions so unspeakable of and it accumulates even more and more. I am working on a way to stop this but so far all I have is this blog. If you need to talk to someone, go to a local church.
  Amanda went through some really hard stuff. It's hard to go through that and know that you might not ever be the same. I know I did. But I don't think she found God because in all of her story, their is not one thing about God and church. I really wish I would have been able to message her and reach out to her. But I know that God is calling me to help set up a suicide prevention and counseling or peer support group in my community.
  I have an amazing church group that is willing to help me get it started. I do need to talk to someone else before this ever gets started. And I know what I want and what I need to do.
 I have some current homework and church bible stuff to finish (that I really haven't even started). So I will come back here soon and give ya'll another topic to talk about.
 But I am going to boost everyones confidence levels because I love making people feel great about themselves! Even if I say I don't like people.

YOU are beautiful, GOD Created YOU to be beautiful! YOU were design to LOVE GOD and serve HIM! GOD made You and HE LOVES YOU very much! Like you have no idea.
























Like not even this much.
























Or this much!
























It's like way beyond this!



























I'm going to start annoying people if I keep this up but yes God loves you and I hope you know your very beautiful! So pray and be beautiful! Thanks Everyone!


-The Christian Girl <3

She's back!

Hey guys,

It's been awhile since I last posted and I am going to explain to why. I'm sorry if I have lost a lot of my readers but I am back now. Hopefully I can gain ya'll back. And even get more.
  Back in Late April, my family went through a finical cut. We lost our internet and phones. It's been awile since we could get it back but we finally have. In that amazing time, I refoucused with God. I changed everything in my life.
   In june I went to a mindblowing, heart- changing, bring you to your knees, church camp. Here is the things talked about and what happened.

Day 1- Truth (arrival)
  I learned God was the truth of life. But I still wasn't full convinced again. We got there and unpacked. Made a awesome flag and everything. The end of that night we talked and had an amazing game night.

Day 2- Repentance
I was brought to my knees that night. Things had a changing point. It all sunk in. We had REC and dominated! (not very christian like but still) I had a awesome day and went swiming that night! Hunger game night!

Day 3- Dependence
I learned that I need to stop being so dang independent and let God have it. I got hit in the face that day. Kinda seems fair I guess. REC was crazy that day! Cowboys Vs. Alien Dance

Day 4- Unity
I learned to Unite as one with Christ! And my chirstian brother and sisters! Today was the last day! I was sad. But it was an amazing week.

Day 5-
We went back home! I loved all the friends I had made.

3 weeks after camp, I moved. I am still living with my mom and her boyfriend. I am in FFA and my art has became so much better. After the move I went to mission trip. Kanas City! An amazing week!

Day 1- I hate planes. I was on my first plane.. But I loved the clouds and seeing people smaller than me! We talked about VBS and I had so much fun!

Day 2- We went to a church and helped a feild day thing for kids and watched a rap group from hope city play! They were pretty great!

Day 3- We went to church and set up again for VBS and Than had VBS

Day 4- We went to the church and painted a house. We than went to VBS and had so much fun with kids.

Day 5- Last Day of VBS and we finsihed painting and cleaning the church up.

Day 6- We went swimming with the kids and than had a wedesnday night bible time with kids and some guy got a mohawk.

Day 7- Went shopping and went to a waterpark. We got rained out and went back to clean the dorms.

Day 8- We flew back home. I didn't want to leave either!

And now school and life groups have started and life is amazing. things have been worked out between my dad and step mom and me! Well I am getting off here! Bye guys!

Boys

Recently, my bestfriend has devopled a crush but to him he thinks I like him back. I have sent a very clear message that I am not. He says he understands but than tells my bestfriend Kay that I like him. Well now that is just enough to make anyone mad.

Another thing he is doing is he has become very over-protective and clingy towards Kay and I. None of my friends want to hang around me with him around. He threatens my friends and my family. He will not stop. He is also a touchy feely guy. He likes to wrap his arms around me and I don't like it. I am not a touchy person with my guy friends. It gives the message that I am leading them on and I want something more than with them. That's why I am like that. I have repeatedly told him to stop. I don't like it. He continues on.

Yesterday, I went to church and invaded my church space. I feel the most safe at church. He was rude and kinda even demanding. No one was mad at him at the time. Things got worse. And they continue to progress. I was suppose to got to a movie and a concert. I don't want to go now. I have talked to his mom and she knows why.

Things calm down with my ex than turn around and get worse with my bestfriend. I am stressing out now. I feel so empty again. And I am fixing to go nuts again. Thats it for now. Bye!

-Her <3

Everything from being away!

Where do I even begin?? Um yeah.. Where have I been the past couple of months? Well I have been with a boy. And I was so involved with him I stopped writing. I got out of life groups and I changed as a person. I became a person with an attitude, bad behavior, tempted into sex amny different times and so much more. I let myself go. I stopped believing in the good Lord. I allowed this boy to affect me in a way that should have never happened. Nothing was important to me. Woo does high school really screw things up. And than I went to a church Kamp and it changed me back and did even more changing spiritually.

I realized that when I went to this Kamp thing that I needed to forgive my dad, my mom, and everyone else who has ever hurt me or did me wrong. I realized how I abondoned my relationship with God. Everything changed for me. I changed from a depressed, angry, punk of a teen to a teenager with her heart set on God. I am finally stronger. I am letting go offmy ex but it is taking its time. I am hurt by him and his words. I am hurt by treatment towards me. It wasn't meant to be and I know that.

I lost my phone and internet so I am currently writing this earlier than it shall be posted. I have my laptop but my parents have paid the billed. I am also thinking of creating a bible study website so I will post all of that when I am ready and I will have an email to were I can give advice for people on it. I might have a co-author on it. If she wants to help, I might have me a partner. I will also create a facebook page for this. I am working on the name and stuff still but this is all a thought process.

I cannot say how thankful I am for all of you guys! For supporting me and helping me throughout this process. Ya'll have a blessed day/night! Goodnight!!!

-The Strong <3

Blackmill

An amazing guy who is awesome who does not need lyrics to most of his music has an amazing fan. I haven't been able to sleep for some weeks and I listened to Blackmill to help me. His music is a melodic dupstep. A very unique talent this is. Several of his songs are downright amazing. His music gives you peace and sereinty through a life time of pain..

This is Evil Beauty.. The pictures are amazing and his beats are amazing. I would be the one to put him up for a music award and much more. I wonder if he would let me interveiw him. It would be amazing to talk to such an amazing artist.

The truth of everyone.. The Lucid Truth.. Thanks guys for supporting me.. I don't get on as much as I use to but I wanted something different. The blog will be undergoing a new name and a new change here soon/ Thanks!